" The constant battle"

 For so many times I have tried, but failed to have the courage to put this directly. I called this " poor and broken" in one of the inspirational posts, but that was cake coating a very  sour drug! I admit that our lives are different and tougher. One of my friends lost all his clan mates in one of the wars that happened in Rwanda. His parents and siblings managed to escape the war and migrated to Uganda. After a couple of years , this friend of mine was about 8 years old when his father died. After one year , even the mother died. The next life was worse than what you can imagine. I am not going to describe it , but let's go to the point of focus. According to WHO , about 450 million people struggle with mental illness or psychological disorders. 1 million of these commit suicide every year. What do you do when you feel stressed but have no idea where the stress comes from? What do you do when your own body fails you? From no where you feel you can't breath or stand. What do you do when out of the blue, you develop serious pain inside you? What about feeling worthless , like no one cares about you in this world? What do you do when you don't see any positive part , neither hope nor faith in your life? All this , is the constant battle in the life of a mentally ill person. Am one of these , and I battle all these disorders everyday of my life. Because no one understands what you go through, you feel its of no use to explain yourself. Most people not understanding who you are, keep judging you and its this that worsens the anxiety, panic, depression and all other mental disorders in the individual creating a worst thought in him/her of committing suicide, and some end up doing it. These disorders, at first have triggers , the painful  moments that initiates them and as time goes on, they become permanent in one's life. They are common in we the Orphans ,  broken Individuals such as women who lost their husbands ( widows), people with traumatic experiences such as a person who watched several close people dying among others. The worst part is that , these disorders are very expensive to treat and they even rarely heal medically. I speak this with evidence , not as a doctor, but as a victim. What can help you , not to completely get healed, but to keep pushing through life  is to always search the little positive thing in every circumstance that happens in your life. You must fight hard, to keep a positive mind always.If this isn't part of your life, thank God that the World gave you comfort but most importantly, learn that even us with these disorders are also human beings ; We are not Mad, but struggling with illnesses that we never hoped to have!